Who is nova?

I DON'T KNOW!

My story starts in march..
i was born into some odd circumstances..I wasn't exactly part of the family.
And as far back as i can remember my mom would tell me i was different and to any idiot of course you can tell i was. I was born into a family that had morals and structure.But you see i was the one that wasn't meant to happen.Yeah i was a bastard baby.And i don't mind. I'm grateful for having life.
My dad. I hate him with a passion.I've never met him once in my life but the way he made my life a living hell is just the start of my life.
My mom. She is the only person i have ever and i love her to death.I don't think i ever said that to her and i regret it.She married a man,which is my bother and sisters dad. And after a long time of abuse she left him. During this time she met my dad, Ronald. I don't know exactly what happened between them becuz my mom never likes to tell me anything about him.
Anyways, like any stupid woman that loves a man she went back to that abusive relationship.But she brought a little bit more baggage. ME!
Yeah mom got knocked up by a stranger.:/ but she made the best of it and raised me with mr.abuse.He raised me til about 6 years old when my mother finally build courage to leave him.
So their we are. My family.
My mom worked from 3 in the morning til about 7 or 9 at night. so i didn't have a childhood.Never went to the zoo or played in the park with my huskie..ha ha nope not me
i was stuck at home cleaning,cooking and being watched by my sister.
wasn't that bad but OK.
You know that one person as a kid who you love and trust? well for me it was my grandma.
I loved that woman with every beat of my heart!
She was the one that made me have a conscious.
So.. as i grow i knew alot. not that smart but very bright.
And well now im just me.
Grown to be the person ur reading about.
Over the past 4 years i have developed a state of mind that always changes.
I've moved plenty of places and met amazing wonderful ppl but did they make me who i am?
answer is yes.
At about 11 years old i started to be aware of what was going on in life.
We struggled.I did have a bad childhood dealing with alot. I guess i was just going thru ur average phases of growing up. so at that age i started to become interested in girls..and if you dont kno yes i am i girl..so add those to things 2 gether and what do you get out of it??
haha
I didnt know who i was or what was right from wrong but as time passed i realized that i did know what i liked it.I got to know someone and she made my life amazing.It didnt last long but from what i experienced with her it was enough to remember forever. As im stil growing i've experienced happiness,and trust,friendship and memories.But of course this world isnt perfect so i had the pain, the loss, and suffering.As i sit here im going thru what ppl call a hard time.
And i know it wont be this way forever but i do want to remember it.It might be a load of crap to most of you but honestly who the hell are you to say?


Nova!